Just Dee Dee....Hips and all!

Hair and Body: Working it out!

2011-09-22T14:14:00.000-07:00

I started using the Insanity DVD set this pass Saturday. OMG! Shawn T. is no joke. I have yet to make it through a whole DVD until last night I was able to make it through Cardio Recovery which is not as high intensity as the rest of the set. But, I plan to get through more and more each day. I really need to focus on the exercise but I am answering the phone and text messages of course mainly from my Ex, but this is not about him, Exactly, I need to realize exercise is about me and making me better. I need to close off the outside world and worry about me and focus on Shawn T. the beautiful man on the TV screen. So, starting today the phone will be left in another room (a room where I cannot hear it because if I even feel the vibration I know I am going to run to it) and I plan to focus on me and all the hard ass exercises I have to do to get through an entire DVD.

I plan to get my haircut this weekend. I am very excited and very nervous. Sometimes, I think I feel that a haircut will change my life. Oh, if I get this new look everything in my life will fall into place and I will be happier. Does anyone else do this? I guess it’s the same concept with weight if I lose this amount of pounds I will be able to do this and this and that. Well, umm, you can do all that now you just don’t chose to is what I tell myself. Anyway, I am trying not to fall into that trap this time because if the haircut doesn’t turn out exactly the way I want it I will be devastated and I have had enough devastation in my life to last a long time lately. So, a haircut is just a haircut this time. Repeat to self, a haircut is just a haircut. (It will not alter your life crazy lady)

41 and Single Again!

2011-09-15T17:32:00.000-07:00

Yes, the place I never thought in a million years I would be. Separated. For 4 long months now and it has been the worst 4 months of my life. I have cried like never before. I have whaled loudly and openly like I have never done before of course when the house is empty. I try very hard to keep my sobs to myself when the children are around. But, when I am alone I have even shocked myself with the noises I can make while crying. I sound like two cats about to fight. And will it even end. Will I ever stop crying over this man? I am starting to believe so. I have my good days and bad days but I am getting better. I am not going to go into details or bash my Ex he is actually a good guy overall just doesn’t what to be married anymore. Midlife? Hell, if I know. I am tired of trying to figure it out so moving on.As you know this was a weight loss blog but it will now be a “My new journey” blog. I am looking to find myself and look for things I enjoy. I think I want to make a list of things I want to do I guess you could say my “bucket list”. I still plan to lose weight. Yes, I do not want to be the fat ex-wife. I plan to work on my self-esteem, my friendships, on being a good mother, and a better daughter. I plan to cherish the memories but let go and move on! Let the fun begin!

Not spending any more money on Weigh Loss!

2011-06-15T21:13:00.000-07:00

I am at it again. But, this time I feel it I am going to do it. I am back to counting points but instead of signing up for WW again and giving them my money I am using old books and old journals that I have already paid for. So, n0 I am not on the new points plus program but that is OK with me.

I have also suspended by regular gym membership and canceled my boxing gym membership. I am tired of spending money on weight loss. So tired!

This coming Sunday I plan to start exercising in my home and outside. I have a ton of exercise DVD's that I have spent money on so I am going to start using them and I am also going to start using the Couch 2 5k program I bought on my Iphone and using the running shoes I bought.

I can do this and without spending money.

Working Out

2011-02-14T09:43:00.000-08:00

I have been working out quite a bit. I started back last Thursday after I had been out awhile because of illness. I have been attending my boxing class and jogging to prepare for my 2nd 5k at the end of March. Saturday was the boxing class which consists of more than just boxing it also includes excercise that a boxer would do to stay in shape and prepare for fights. Oh my, Saturday was legs. We did a lot of leg work and then I went for my Jog on Sunday. And boy am I feeling the burn today. My legs are so sore I am walking like an old lady. I think I will take the day off.

Still Trying

2011-02-10T09:55:00.000-08:00

So, my new exercise is boxing. I joined a MMA gym. No, I don't want to extreme cage fight basically its a fitness class with heavy bags. It's so cool. I love it. I have been sick so I have been away for about a week. I return tonight. I know it's going to be hard it will be like I am starting all over and I was really getting the hang of the class before I fell ill.

I have two friends trying to lose weight now and I am using them as an incentive. It seems I have my most success losing weight when I have a partner striving for the same goal.

Well, wish me luck I plan to do well today.

I have not been trying

2011-02-09T12:06:00.000-08:00

I'm back. I won't say ready but trying. I want to get back in the blog mood and weight loss mood. I hope everyone is doing well. I started a new exercise. I have also been under the weather the last week so I have done much of anything. A friend of mine just lost 12 lbs. Jan. 1 she went on a diet and lost 12 lbs. counting calories without a glitch. Now why can't I do that. Anyway, I'm back and trying.

Temptation, Temptation...

2010-12-13T10:01:00.000-08:00

The weekend is the worst. I was down 3 lbs. on Saturday. Yeah me! That much closer to onederland for the New Year. But, the dreaded weekend. I woke up Saturday morning with the right attitude. I hopped onto Exercise TV on On-Demand. Which is funny because I happened on Exercise TV the same day Paj suggested it in my comments. Thanks Paj! I kick boxed Friday morning. Which is a quick 20 minute work-out that fits in perfectly in the mornings. At one point, I would have said 20 minutes is nothing but I see now that it's 20 minutes that I wouldn't have gotten in before. So there! Anyway, Saturday morning I ventured into the Crunch category and I did the hip hop exercise. It was really fun. It was about 24 minutes and since it was Saturday morning and everyone in the house was still sleeping I opted to do the 20 minute kickboxing session as well.

As for food, my son had a basketball game Friday night that my husband and I attended. My son decided to go out and eat with friends so my husband and I did the same. Oh boy, we went to Happy Hour! They had $1.99 loaded fries and $2.99 Steak Sliders. With that, I then ordered dinner before the appetizer even arrived. What was I thinking? Well, I shared the loaded fries with my husband in which he probably are 3/4 of it and I ate one Steak Slider and by then I was full and took my burger I ordered for dinner home and my son ate it before the night was over. Oh, did I mention I had a margarita. In all, I did not deprive myself but I did not go overboard and as I mentioned I still had a 3 lbs. lost Saturday morning.

Last, I found myself at the grocery store on Saturday and we were there at Midnight looking for a Midnight snack. I had a piece of Cheesecake. I hope I work it off during this week. I was home all day on Sunday but I tried not to eat all day like I usually do when I have a lazy day and I succeeded.

That was my weekend. How was yours?

I'm excited...

2010-12-09T09:57:00.000-08:00

It day 4 and I am still on top of things. I am reading blogs again and writing my own. I am eating well. Oh, my husband has been amazing. Since, I arrive home so late he usually has dinner ready. He has been cooking as health conscientious as he possibly can. For example, we had spinach salad with a chicken breast on top the other night. He even thought about me wanting a low cal choice for salad dressing. Wow, this is a lot for him but I think he realizes we both need to get down to a healthy size. He's awesome.

I am still struggling with what exercise I want to do. I have chosen to exercise at night for now but my resources are limited because its to dark to run I have yet to find all my DVDs since the move. I think I may start adventuring off the gym that I pay for monthly. I have a long day or working and commuting and I just don't want to leave home once I have arrived. Also, I have to make room for my son and daughters basketball games that will be starting in full force this week. So, I will need to work around the games as well. I will figure it out because I want this and I feel that I am finally in the right mindset to achieve my goals!

Should I be lying in the bed hungry!

2010-12-08T09:37:00.000-08:00

Things are going well. I am eating the calories suggested by livestrong.com. I exercised so I earned more calories to eat but choose not to eat them. I am fine up until I lay in my bed. I feel hunger pains. No, not I am bored so I must eat or I am emotional so I must eat. I am hungry. Should I feel this way is it a good thing. I eventually fall off to sleep and start again but I am a little worried.

Anyway, I made up my own exercise last night while watching Chase. I started out trying to exercise with Tony Horton doing some Kenpo X from P90X. But, that mans exercises are 60 minutes for a reason. He was stretching and doing yoga moves for the first 10 minutes. Oh my goodness let's get on with it. So, I was discouraged and choose to run in place, kickbox, and do what ever came to mind for 30 minutes. At least, I got it in!

I did well yesterday...

2010-12-07T11:52:00.000-08:00

I stayed within my calorie allotment and I even worked out while my husband watched Monday night football and my son was doing his homework. So, I did not deprive anyone of quality time. I think that is one of the reasons I stray from late night work outs because I haven't seen my family all day and I think I feel they need me. I know, I know I need to have me time and think about me. Well, I am from now on. I had a shower and got my hair together and was still able to veg out on the couch for awhile with the husband. I can do this! Thanks to Monique for her response. I hope you continue to blog.

I am at a lost.

2010-12-06T10:29:00.000-08:00

OMG! I need to lose weight. Why is this so hard? I really don't try to hard that's why. I never stick to it. I am making a few changes this week. I starting back to counting calories. I really need to get my eating under control. I need to think about my exercise though. I really would like to exercise in the mornings but getting up early enough to go run and get back to get dress is one thing but to include washing, blow drying, and straightening my hair is just about impossible. I am not a morning person as is and to have to get up even earlier is not an option. I would be dog tire before I even arrive to work. What to do? What to do? I could workout in the evening but being that I work until 6pm and I commute an hour and I don't get home til 7pm is another problem. Yes, I hate these hours but this is what I sacrifice. to take my son to school. I am going to try working out in the evening this week. I have to put more days then usual in this week since I decided to be a bum all weekend. So, I won't be able to run because I will not being going running alone in the dark. Be there, done that, scared to death. Maybe, I can go over to the gym and get my run in or maybe I can pull out some old work out dvd's that have not be used in ages. I need to make a decision before I get home tonight. I guess I needed to vent. This is the most I have blogged in quite a while.

Any suggestions on what to do?

Nothing new...

2010-11-30T17:47:00.000-08:00

Nothing new or exciting happening over here. I am a little upset that when I quit WW they start a new program the next month. Well, I guess it wasn't meant to be. I have been eating good this week so far and yes, I know it is only Tuesday. I plan to go out for Day 3, Week 1 of C25k in the morning. I will let you know how it goes.

I've been away...

2010-11-29T11:50:00.000-08:00

Yes, life was acting up the past 2 months and I was acting up right with it. I think I'm back. Without going into detail, I had some trouble at home and life as I know it stopped for about 1 month but all is well now. Since, then we have moved to another City which is closer to my son's school but further from work but that is a sacrifice I willing to take for my family. I think I gained about 3 lbs. I have not been eating well nor exercising. But, now that we have settled into our new house I am ready to go.

I started C25k again this past Saturday. I had actually completed the 9 weeks and was running 3 miles until life fell apart. But, Saturday I started day 1 again. It was fun to get back out there. As of today, I am going to start watching what I eat. I am not ready to start counting points or calories though.

Of course I fell off track with 15 in 15 Challenge. I have not sent in progress in weeks. I have not even unpacked my scale. I need to get to that today.

I hope all is well. and I'm back.

New Plan

2010-11-01T11:29:00.000-07:00

I am starting anew today. I had a few obstacles in my life the last month that stopped me in my tracks. I believe its time to heal and with that I am ready to rejoin this weight loss journey.

I closed my weight watchers account because the truth is I was just giving them my money but I have now turned to counting calories on livestrong.com.

I am ready to get back to my running full swing. I haven't really stopped but I wasn't getting out as much as I would like.

I still love the first level of JM shred with weights even if she is getting hammered for her technique but from my reading its level 2 that everyone is saying she is doing wrong and I believe its just 2 movements that are wrong.

Anyway, I am thinking of buying Jeanette Jenkins latest video. Has anyone tried it? Ha, does anyone read my blog?

Anyway, I am happy and ready to go.

Pink Dress Run

2010-10-30T08:55:00.000-07:00

I didn't plan on it until this morning but I joined in on Fran's ♥ Pink Dress Run ♥

Day: Saturday
Time: 8am
Distance: 2 - Updated.
Time: 30 minutes

Ready??

2010-10-18T10:43:00.000-07:00

Ok, I have decided I want to lose weight now. I have started counting calories this week. I am ready this time. I'm going to try not to make it a big deal so I won't freak out.

Anyway, I plan to run today at lunch since I was side tracked this weekend with partying and getting ready for partying and recovering from partying.

I will try to get back to my blogging as well. Oh, I run my 2nd 5k this coming Saturday. I'm excited but not as prepared as I would like to be.

Still here...

2010-10-15T10:12:00.000-07:00

I have a situation going on in my life that has been causing me to have insomnia. Therefore, my running is suffering because I am too damn tired to get out there. But, things are starting to look back up and I was able to get JM Shred with weights in this morning. I plan to run Saturday and Sunday mornings.

I will run in my 2nd 5k next Sunday. I want to get in at least 4 more runs before the event because I really want to increase my time from my first run.

I haven't been eating well at all. I haven't even been thinking about eating right. Exercise is always on my mind though so my plan of making one a habit is working and then I will work on the other. So, therefore the 15 in 15 challenge is not going well for me.

Anyway, I need to get back in stride with running and weights. Hopefully, I will start getting some sleep.

Update

2010-10-06T09:05:00.000-07:00

I had my best run yet this morning. I ran 28 minutes straight with a 5 minute warm up and 5 minute cool down. I was running 25 minutes which included 1 minute in the middle of walking to catch my breath. Today, I ran a good pace for 28 minutes without wanting to stop. This may not seem like much to runners but it is something to me.

I am even more excited for my 2nd 5k coming up this month. October 24 to be exact. I am hoping to improve my time. My first 5k I completed in 39.08 which I was happy with because the plan was to finish in under 40. This time I would like to finish in 35 minutes or under.

I plan to Shred with weights tomorrow morning. I am actually learning to love this kettle bell work out. With running and this shred with weights I really feel my core changing. Now I need to get more consistent. I take to many days off between work outs.

Other than that exercise is good. Eating is ok and I am not sure how I am going to do in this 15 in 15 challenge because for some reason my weigh just keeps remaining the same. Anyway, I am going to keep working at it. As JM says, "Trust the process"! I think that is how it goes.

New Challenge

2010-09-28T12:18:00.000-07:00

I hope I do will. I have maintained the same weigh for 2 weeks since I decided to just exercise. I am still not counting calories but I am paying attention to what I am stuffing in my mouth so I can lose at least 1 pound a week.

I went running this morning. I did really well. I am almost done with c25k. I know I have on this journey forever. But, in my defense I have made a few runs that did not include the c25k program like when I run with my friend.

Anyway, good luck like to all the ladies in the 15 in 15 challenge and I hope to make a few new friends.

Posting hasn't been easy

2010-09-27T11:53:00.000-07:00

I have not been able to post in a while. I am going well with running. I still need to increase my time but all is slow and steady and I am happy. That's what counts. I have joined Ms. Haneefa's 15 in 15 challenge. It's doable without making me crazy. I wanted to start slowing changing my eating soon anyway and this seems like the time to do it. Thanks Ms. Haneefa.

Exercising

2010-09-16T09:48:00.001-07:00

Exercise is going great! I got a 45 minute run in last night with my friend. We walked 15 minutes of that. It was a good run. I am wondering if my shins will ever get used to me running. They always hurt the next day but it always goes away by the 2nd day when I am ready to run again. I am working on my form hoping to find a way of running that will not hurt my shins so much.

Anyway, I also got in JM's Shred with Weighs this morning. I think I like it. I have to accept that its just weighs and does not include cardio which was something I wanted to incorporate anyway. I want to maybe include two nights of elliptical in with my 3 runs and 3 weigh training sessions.

As for my eating, as I said I am not harping on counting anything right now I am focusing on exercise but I do find myself mulling over what I should be eating so that's a good thing.

I hope all is well with whoever is reading this and I am off to work.

Yes!

2010-09-13T09:21:00.000-07:00

I ran in my first 5k! I wasn't quite finished with my C25k program but I wanted to try one out since it was right in my town. It was hard. My goal was to finish in under 40 minutes. I came in at 39.04. My friend I spoke of in my last post came in about 1:30 behind me. So, she did really well. I was so nervous. I barely slept the night before. I think all the anxiety of not knowing what I was in for overwhelmed me. It wasn't bad at all. There were so many others there for their first 5k as well. It turned out to be really fun and I met some really nice people. One of the ladies I met actually through the friend I went with took 2nd in her age group. She finished in 23 minutes. And my friend and two new friends including the one just mentioned that took second in her age group well we all decided to run another 5k together next month. Next month I am hoping to finish under 35 minutes. So, I have some work to do. I plan to run with my friend once a week and run on my own at least 2 times a week until the next 5k.

Today, I started the Shred with weights dvd suggested by LeeLee at Crazyriffs. I don't have a kettlebell yet. I just used a 5 lbs. dumbbell but I like the workout. I thought it was a little easy until the 3rd circuit and I was winded. It's a good doable workout. One that I would go back to and I just may need to increase the weigh to make it more challenging if needed. Exercise is my focus right now. With a little awareness of what I am eating but no calorie or points counting at the moment. I really want to make exercise a way of life so I am focusing on that.

Finally!

2010-09-10T11:17:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow, I will be in my first 5k walk/run! It is slightly bittersweet. I am excited to be in it but I don't think I will get the full benefit out of it that I want. The reason, I mentioned the 5k to a friend and she has decided she wants to run too. She has been running on the treadmill and I have been running outside. I have been building up for 6 weeks I'm not sure how long she has been running at her gym. I can run for 25 minutes straight now at my pace. well, we went out for a dry run the other night and she was winded 8 minutes in. What is a girl to do? I have goals. I have been working hard. But, she is my friend and I have been in her shoes. But, if it was me I would take note that I can't keep up with her and she has been working hard and I would tell my friend to go on without me.

Anyway, I have decided to make this my fun run since it is all new to me anyway. I hope to make it fun for the both of us and I will keep running and there is a another 5k in my area next month that I will run to my fullest and at least I will have one 5k under my belt and I will know what to expect.

Wish me luck!

Yes, I am still here

2010-09-07T11:08:00.001-07:00

I have been just trying to regroup. Exercise is going great. I have decided to focus on my running. I am up to about 2 1/2 miles now without walking. I have not been focusing on food. But, I am sane at the moment. I am happy with just focusing on running right now. Next week, I plan to incorporate weights again. I am taking tiny steps. Life is good right now.

Feeling Good

2010-08-25T07:38:00.000-07:00

It's Wednesday and I have been doing pretty good. My eating has been under control and I have been going out for my walk/jogs. I went out last night at about 7:30 and it was still 98 degrees out. For the first time, I took out a bottle of water with me thinking I better stay hydrated in this heat. It was a little awkward holding that bottle running but I am glad I had it. In the end, it wasn't so bad I guess since the sun was down. I did get a little scared while running behind our sports park and there wasn't much light. Another runner came up behind me and gave me a little fright. I think I will take another route if its after dark next time if the field lights aren't on.

Anyway, I am taking this one day at a time. Let's see what today has in store for me.

All over the place...Make a decision Woman!

2010-08-23T12:32:00.000-07:00

I am hoping my pity party is over. I have decided to weigh myself once a week. (Everyday I decide something in this weight loss journey. When will one of these decisions stick and work for me.) But, I am not going to count points. It frustrates me sometime. So, I am going to just eat what I know I should be eating. (Tomorrow I will probably be back to counting points at the rate I am going.) Well, I don't think my pity party is over.

Anyway, I have eaten pretty good so far today. I bought some Almonds. Why can I only have one handful a day. I know, I know it's the fat in them. But, I love them and eating just a handful is torture.

I stopped at See's Candies over the weekend. Whhhyyy? I haven't had anything from See's in a very long time and I just got a few candies from the counter. The Almond Buds are the best but that craving is behind me but fully enjoyed.

Anyway, this week I plan to eat right and exercise. Let's go Deedee!

I cooked today!

2010-08-21T13:17:00.000-07:00

This is so very rare. I made my family Chicken Wraps for lunch. They were Cajun Chicken Wraps I found on a website. Recipes never really turn out for me but it worked and my family liked it.

I also ran this morning. I decided to eat healthy and exercise and put my scale away. I am tired of living on this yoyo. Anyway, back to my Saturday. Have a great weekend!

Working on me.

2010-08-11T07:21:00.000-07:00

I'm so sore. I have been lifting weighs for two days and my arms are killing me. I love lifting weighs though I don't know why I don't do it more. Well, actually I do. I don't seem to lose weight when I lift. But, this time I plan on working through that and not getting discouraged.

I went to the doctor on Monday. I went for my annual physical which I haven't been to in two years. In the past, I have had a problem with my iron it has always been low with that I have had hair thinning. I am happy to say my iron is up and I am hoping my hair will thicken back up but the Doctor says that could take a while. In all I am happy with my doctor visit and the results. But, I hit the big 40 this year and sadly I have to have a mammogram. I am a little scared. But, I need to put on my big girl panties and take it like a Woman.

Well, I have been rethinking the points and exercise updates because I don't blog everyday. I'm not sure what to do. I do know that when I wanted to eat something I shouldn't be eating I said to myself you will be posting your points. Too many decision in this weight loss journey. I am also still trying to decide if I should sign up with this 5k training group. I think I will walk down and find out more information about it today.

On the right path.

2010-08-10T08:19:00.000-07:00

Points eaten: 24.5/24
Activity Points Earned: 3
Shred: Day 1 Level 1

I didn't exercise until 9pm last night. I was caught up in a discussion with my husband until then but I had to put the excuses behind me and I exercised before I went to bed. I slept really well. I thought I would be wired but I passed out after my shower.

I also did well with my points.I'm determined to keep at my goals and lose weight. I need to go over and read Corletta's blog now. She told me to tune in today.

Ready to get going!

2010-08-08T09:47:00.000-07:00

I got back out and jogged this morning. I was on Week 6 of my C25k training on July 6
and I stopped. I let life be an excuse. But, I am starting again. I started with day 3 of week 3. It alternated between 1:30 run, 1:30 walk, 3:00 run, 3:00 walk and I did fine. I think I will just to day 3 of Week 4 next. I am going to end this program one day.

I've decided to steal an idea from Heidi @ One step at a time. I am going to start adding my daily WW tracking to my page you know hold myself accountable.

Along with running I plan to Shred with Jillian for 30 days straight and I will add that to my page as well.

Last, there is a 5k training program that will be starting soon near my job. They will be training as a group for 2 months for a local 5k. I am debating on joining. One of the problems is that my job is 30 minutes away from my home and I would have to drive there 6 days a week instead of 5. Hmmm! I will think about it more.

Home Sweet Home

2010-08-07T14:01:00.000-07:00

I'm home and I am ready to get ready to get back to my weight loss journey. Last week was a Olympiad of food, I was at a conference and they feed you and feed you and I eat and eat. I have not had a morning weight in since I've been back you so I really don't know the damage. I will weigh in in the morning. I am hoping to start up my running again tonight. I don't think I have exercised in a month. I am still on a quest to run a 5k. I also need to incorporate more exercise. I am ready to settle in and get busy. How have you all been? Anyone still out there?

I've been away...and I am leaving again

2010-07-31T10:19:00.000-07:00

Well, I have been away from my blog for a while. I was in Vegas and Anaheim. It was great. While I did not exercise we did do a lot of walking and the heat in Vegas was a sauna so I am sure I lost some water weight. Anyway, I did not gain weight I came back at 198. That is success for me. Any way I head back out to Anaheim next week for business and I am hoping to maintain again and get back to the grind of losing weight the following week. Ok, I need to go and catch up with all of you now. I hope I have time to blog next week. Bye for now.

Losing the battle...

2010-07-13T08:31:00.000-07:00

I am trying to get back on track.

1. Get the right mind set
2. Journal my food intake.
3. Get back to my jogging. I am so close.

Short simple list that I can stick too.

Better week so far...

2010-07-06T18:40:00.000-07:00

I didn't do so bad 4th of July. I actually didn't eat much this year. The BBQ just wasn't as good for some reason.

Anyway, I have been trying to get my husband to jog with me but he refuses to run outdoors because it just kills his knees so I can't blame him but this morning he said let's go to the gym. I was like Yes! he wants to exercise so I can't disappoint. Though, I don't want to run on the treadmill I want to run outside. So, he wanted to lift weights and play basketball so I told him to drive to the gym and I would jog to the gym which was 2.0 miles. I did it! I was so happy. I ran to an actual destination instead of around and around our park. Then, I jumped on the elliptical for about 30 minutes. So, I exercised for over an hour. So, now I know I can and need to step my game up.

Bad Week

2010-07-02T06:19:00.000-07:00

This has been a bad week for me. "I don't care" has taken over me. I haven't been eating right nor exercising. I want to put everything off until Monday to get back on track but I know Sunday is a holiday and I know I better get back on track today or I will be miserable with all my bad choices by Monday.

So, today, I plan to stick to my WW eating plan. I plan to do the same tomorrow. I plan to eat sensible on the 4th. And Monday will be back to weighing in, WW, and exercise.

I have running around today and tomorrow to do for the wedding I'm attending tomorrow so exercise is not going to happen and I will be with family all day Sunday so I just have to make the choice to eat properly and get back into the complete mindset on Monday.

Have a great weekend!

BSing myself.

2010-06-28T08:40:00.000-07:00

My big goal when I started this journey was to be under 200 lbs. Well, I didn't that but I have moved since. I have been moving up and down between 197 and 199 for a few weeks now. And the sad part is I have been ok with it. Why? Because, it's under 200! I need to get out of the mentality and get real with myself. I exercise and I eat well during the week but the weekends are kicking my butt. And this coming weekend will be no different. 4th of July weekend! Family BBQ! Oh boy!

Anyway, I will think about that later. Right now I need to focus on counting points. I have the exercise down. Well, the cardio part. I am enjoying jogging. But, I have not pulled Jillian out in a while and I think I need to lift some weight. I need to revamp my strategy. I am going to start today by counting my ww points. I really need to set a goal of reaching 195 so I can get my mind off of 200 I am pass that marker and it's time to move on.

Any suggestions!

Week 5 Day 2 of C25k

2010-06-23T08:59:00.000-07:00

I ran week 5 day 2 last night and I was strong. It was 5 min warm-up 8 minute, run 5 minute walk, 8 minute run and a 5 minute cool down. And I did it without wanting to stop. I was a little self conscious at one point because I felt like I was jiggling and people were walking behind me. But, I was like this is for me not them and if I keep running the jiggle will go away in a few weeks.

I also needed to stop at the end of my run at a point because I started to get a pain in my ankle. I think I need to upgrade my New Balance Cross Trainers. I bought them a few years back to work out at the gym but not run. But, I didn't want to buy a pair of running shoes until I was committed to running. I think I may be committed. I want to run now I can't wait. I have my days so I just don't go but the next day its a must since I missed the last day. With that said, I think I need to go get running shoes.

I am thinking of walking to Fleet Feet near my job at lunch. I don't want expensive specialized shoes but since I have flat feet I need a recommendation on good shoes that will support my ankles, shins, and knees because pounding on flat feet is no joke.

Today or tomorrow will be a 5 minute warm-up and a 20 minute straight run and 5 minute cool down. Wish me luck!

Restaurant Ramble

2010-06-21T07:10:00.000-07:00

I have to stay away from the restaurants. This is a busy month for Summer High School basketball. Every weekend we are out and about traveling to games. I just want to eat what everyone else is eating. I think I need to find a middle ground I eat healthy all week and then I do well during the weekend until my husband and son want to go to a restaurant. I didn't feel guilty this weekend though I worked out this week and I ate well. I had a 4 lbs lost this week. Although I had a 4 lbs gain the week before because I gave in to the restaurants but it didn't stop. I was out of control and I didn't regain it until last Tuesday but this week I was in control and I ate at the restaurants and ate what I wanted because I know I had worked so hard all week at eating well and exercising. And I didn't over do it the rest of the day.

Ok, sorry, I am rambling. I am really busy at work today but I wanted to post. I will get back to this tomorrow. bye all.

Running was Tough Last Night

2010-06-17T08:21:00.000-07:00

I just realized yesterday's post was my 100th. I didn't really start this blog as a weight loss blog it was originally started to be just about me the reason for the name "Just Dee Dee". I wanted a place for "me time" since most of my time was spent taking care of my family but as you can see I started to talk about my weight loss journey which is still all about me so I guess I am still on the same path.

Anyway, I ran last night and it was the toughest yet. It may have been the heat though. I left out at about 5:30 when I usually go at about 7pm when the sun is starting to go down but I was eager and hadn't been out since last Friday. That is another reason it may have been so tough. I had not run in 5 days. It was probably a mixture of both because when I set out the wind was blowing and then it seemed to stop and the sun was blaring down on me. During the running phases, I kept checking my Iphone to see if I missed the queue to walk because I felt as if I was running forever. I did check the program after and I was running 5 minutes walk 1:30 run 3:00 walk 1:30 and so on. So, I was doing a lot of running at least for me.

I did finally make it through and I was proud of myself. I plan to go out again tonight. I don't want to take any more 5 day breaks it was too much on me.

Happy Thursday!

Relapse

2010-06-16T07:51:00.000-07:00

I have been a little down. I didn't have a good weekend. I made some bad choices and didn't exercise. I need to learn to deal with life being a little different and still be able to eat well. During the week its all routine. On the weekend when we are out and about I struggle. But, I am putting it behind me and moving forward. I didn't want to post today but I think I needed too to get back in the swing of things. Let's go Dee!

Feeling better

2010-06-10T07:43:00.001-07:00

I am feeling better today. I ate within my points yesterday and I exercised with Jillian. I did not get on the scale at all. I was handling not jumping on that scale so well but since I decided I want to be 190 by a wedding July 3 I've been all over it. That stopped Tuesday night when I realized what it does to me.

I want to still weigh myself on Saturday and then official weigh-in on Monday. Is that Crazy? The only reason I want to weigh myself on Saturday is to see if I am on track for the wedding. Hhhmm..Maybe that doesn't make sense. Anyway, I feel good and thanks for the encouragement ladies.

Remainder of exercise for the week:

4.2 C25k
4.3 C25k
30 day shred

Feeling down...

2010-06-09T07:51:00.000-07:00

I am feeling a little down today. Oh, and I let the scale ruin my workout last night. I got on the scale while I was getting dressed for working out with Jillian and I wasn't pleased with what I saw. It wasn't bad but it wasn't better than the day before. Why do I do this to myself? I actually put my clothes back on and pouted the rest of the evening. As if that was going to do anything. No more scale other than weigh-in day for me!

Pizza fight!

2010-06-07T07:50:00.000-07:00

I weighed in this morning and I am still at 198.4. Which, I am very happy with. I think I am going to keep my official weigh-in on Monday but just weigh in on Saturday to see where I stand with my goal.

I had a battle with my favorite food yesterday. Pizza! My son wanted pizza and I always want pizza but I have not ordered in a while on purpose. It took me about an hour to go over everything that could go wrong if I ordered. I totally overeat Pizza. I eat just because it's there. I eat until it's gone. I decided why make my son suffer and its time for me to eat Pizza like a sane person.

So, I decided to order a medium since only my son and I were home. Less Pizza to gorge myself on. And I ordered half with just mushrooms. So, The Pizza arrived at about 3pm. This was basically our lunch. I ate two pieces and I let my son eat his. When I saw he was done I put the box in the oven. I thought out of sight out of mind. It worked! At about 7pm I allowed myself another slice and that was it. And with breakfast, and other light snacks and the three slices of Pizza I stayed within my points for the day. And for once I won the battle with my favorite food Pizza!

Update

2010-06-06T12:22:00.000-07:00

Things are going well. My Mom surprised me with a trip to Essence Music Festival but I had to turn it down because I already had a trip planned to Vegas with the family so that was a little upsetting.

Anyway, I have been eating good and exercising. I have a new goal. I would like to be 190 by July 3 for a wedding I will be attending. I decided this on Tuesday that just passed. So, I told myself I needed to be 198 by Saturday so I could be on track to lose 2 lbs every Saturday to make 190 by July 3. So, I weighted in yesterday at 198.4. Yes! That works for me. Now I am trying to decide if I should change my weigh in date to Saturdays instead of Mondays.

Last, Lee Lee asked about my C25k program. I use a Couch to 5k app on my Iphone. But, there are plently of them out there and I believe they generally use the same pattern. Here's one I found.Cool Running

No Fight...

2010-06-03T07:09:00.000-07:00

I didn't have to fight myself last night. I went out and ran without a glitch. I wanted to go. I am glad I didn't force myself to go the night before. I enjoyed my run last night. I even got to watch an adult co-ed soccer game as I jog/walked by.

Thanks for the encouragement Corletta!

Last night, I ran day 2 of Week 3. I thought week 3 was the half way point in my program but it turns out the program I'm using is 9 weeks. Remember, I said I would buy myself a Garmin after week 3 well that was when I thought it was halfway. (I wish I would have remembered my reward Tuesday when I didn't want to run.) Anyway, I think I will still buy the Garmin this weekend and then I will have it for the remainder of my program. I think it will help on the doubtful days and I can see my progress and try to increase my time. Anyway, Let's get through today!

Tough time running

2010-06-02T08:40:00.000-07:00

I have mentioned that I am trying for the 2nd or 3rd? time to complete the C25k program. I could not get myself to leave the house last night. I changed clothes. I put my Iphone in my running holder and I put on my running shoes. But, I just did not want to go. Is running not for me? Others seem so excited to go out for their runs. Once I start it's not bad at all but getting out of the house is like pulling teeth.

I did exercise though. I worked out with Jillian (30-day Shred). I enjoyed it. Maybe, I just needed a change. Then, I started thinking it is June 1 maybe I should go for the whole 30 days or will I burn out on Jillian.

Oh, what to do? I really don't want to give up on the C25k again. I guess I will see how tonight goes. Anyway, I ate really good yesterday and today is a new day. Happy Wednesday all!

White flag...

2010-06-01T09:35:00.000-07:00

First, I had a wonderful weekend with my husband and son and my sons basketball team and all the families. I even got a glimpse of my daughter when I went to sign her extended lease on her apartment. Any sight of her now days is a plus.

Anyway, all that time on the rode and hanging out for games. I lost my will and through in the towel. Why? I can't answer that. I still had eating right in the back of my mind so I didn't overindulge but I did indulge. An example would be instead of ordering a chicken wrap with the dressing on the side with fruit. I ordered the chicken wrap and fries. The dressing on those wraps in restaurants are the worst in calories. I did get some exercise in Saturday morning but I had no time on Sunday and Monday. On Monday, I did make an effort to walk as much as possible.

With that said, I gained .8 lbs this week.

In all I enjoyed myself and the boys took the tournament for their age group and my son played very well.

Back to my goals today!

2010-05-28T07:27:00.001-07:00

LA wasn't too bad. It was one of those rushed visits so we barely had time to eat. I think I had a meal and a half and the complete meal was a good choice because I had a Caesar Salad wrap without the Caesar Dressing. Luckily, it had tomatoes in it so there was some moisture. Anyway, the graduation was very nice and I enjoyed myself. I didn't get to exercise so today, Saturday and Sunday are exercise must days. I also plan to stay within my daily points count the remainder of the week.

So, my goals for the next three days are:

1. 25 Weight Watcher points a day
2. All three days of C25k week 3
3. 10,000 Steps.

My son has a basketball tournament this weekend so we will be 70 miles away from home each day so I know we will be eating out so I need to think about how I am going to handle Saturday and Sunday and stay within my points. Oh, boy!

2010-05-25T07:37:00.000-07:00

I am heading to LA tomorrow for my cousins daughters graduation, which would make her my cousin as well, from Long Beach State. I am excited to be getting away but nervous about food and exercise. I needed a relax day yesterday. I ate within my points but I did not exercise. I needed the break and I don't regret it at all but what about Wednesday and Thursday while I am in LA. I need to get exercise in since I skipped Monday. ggrrr.. Anyway, I plan to walk/jog tonight. Wednesday just may have to be a day off but when I return Thursday I will try to get a work-out in. I believe we fly back early I am not sure because my Mother holds the itinerary. Yes, 40 and my mom scheduled our plans for LA. Anyway, I will try to keep to my goals while traveling and see how things go. Wish me luck!

This is hard

2010-05-24T10:38:00.000-07:00

Losing weight is hard. I am a little frustrated. I am still doing well though. I only lost .2 but I lost. Anyway, I have to stick to my goals for the week. I was very lazed with the goals this week so that was my result.

Anyway, pretty busy at work right now so I may post again later.

Not so great

2010-05-19T18:40:00.000-07:00

Today was a bad food day. I made a few bad choices but I counted it all and went into my weekly points so I am not to worried about it. I ate a Brownie that a co-worker brought in and it was down hill from there. I also had a stressful event that just took me to that I need something to calm my nerves place. I have to stop turning to food when I am stressed. I should have taken a step back and thought before I started grabbing candy out of the candy jar at work. Oh well!

I am not out of control I am still within my points I just dipped more into the weekly extra then I would have wanted to. Now I just need to plan the rest of my week accordingly.

Well, my daugter is stopping by with some friends tonight so I think I'll go out for my walk/jog before she arrives. Hopefully, it doesn't rain on me tonight. Monday night it started to rain while I was out and I decided to keep going instead of running home and I actually enjoyed it but I don't want to make running in the rain a habit.

Having Fun...

2010-05-18T08:59:00.000-07:00

I am finally really enjoying this journey and along with that blogging. Success may have something to do with it so that is another incentive to keep it up.

I am learning so much from the blogs I read. I receive motivation, learn how to plan, get exercise tips and so much more. I am so inspired by people that have lost 100 lbs or more. Of course I am inspired by those that have lost less as well. Losing weight is hard no matter how much you have to lose believe me I know. Blogland just amazes me. I love hearing about the journeys of others it really helps me during my journey. I am not the best commenter though. I never know exactly what to say. I think it has to do with I am just learning and how can I give someone advice. But, I am learning. I don't receive many comments either but I am so grateful for the comments and the encouragement I do receive.

Sometimes, I tell myself "maybe if I comment more I will receive more comments and followers" but I don't want to do that. I think that is phony. I comment when I really feel the need to say something even if it's just "Great Job" or "Congrats". That is really how I feel!

This blog is for me and I love the people that comment because they are real and I wish them success and I truly feel they wish me success.

Success!

2010-05-17T08:41:00.000-07:00

Having goals works! I didn't quite meet them all but striving for them helped me lose 2.6 this week. Yahoo! I did count my WW points daily. I did meet the 3x C25k challenge and I did lose 2 lbs. Yes! I did not go to the gym and work out on the elliptical at all and I did not make 10000 steps each day but I did make over 10000 steps 4 out of 7 days. Friday - Sunday I took a break for personal health reasons.

I can't believe I counted the WW points all week without missing a morsel. And I have to do the same this week. I have to make counting points a priority. I went to my Mom's house this weekend and I usually eat like food is going out of style at her house. My Mom's house is so comfortable and welcoming and she always has food you name it she has it. And the woman can cook and she is always feeding us. By us, I mean me and my family. Her babies. But, I went in with a plan. I brought my own food. Being that she is on a diet she wasn't offended at all. I stuck to the plan and it worked out. Then, Sunday, I almost took a misstep I wanted to go to Wingstop. Of course I convinced myself that I had enough points and then I wouldn't eat anything the rest of the day. It was 1pm. Then, my husband made a comment like "Why go to Wingstop after all your hard work this week" and for once I didn't lash out at him like a crazy woman for making comments to me about my diet. He is forever trying to help me but most of the time I don't take to kindly to his suggestion but it is always from his heart and not because he wants me to lose weight. He loves this Big Girl just the way she is. Anyway, I went to the kitchen and fixed myself a healthy lunch and I was able to eat dinner. Imagine that!

I plan to stick to the same goals this week. Except, I will be on week 2 of C25k.

1. Count WW points daily
2. C25k three times this week
3. Elliptical Trainer two this week
4. 10000 steps each day
5. Lose 2 lbs.

Going well

2010-05-13T21:17:00.000-07:00

I have been doing well on accomplishing my goals. I have finished my C25K program for the week. The running is going really well I am actually enjoying it. I have yet to make it to the gym to work-out on the elliptical but I did pull out my Zumba DVD to work out in its place. I just can't get myself to go to the gym and I am not sure why.

I have been counting points and making the 10000 steps each day. Things have been going well. I hope I lose the two lbs. I haven't step on the scale all week because as I have said before the scale is sabatage for me with a good or bad weight in so I am not getting on until Monday. I may have to make no scale one of my goals next week. It's an unspoken goal this week.

Goals Update...

2010-05-12T09:00:00.000-07:00

OK,I will probably blog a lot about my goals this weeks because I am trying to make them habit. So, bare with me.

I succeeded again. I was suppose to go to the gym last night and work out on the elliptical but instead I opted to walk/jog again. It was great. I think I am on a C25k high. I hope it lasts. Anyway, I didn't want to go to gym last night. I didn't want to drive there and then deal with all the people. I think my elliptical goal is going to be hard to reach if I am avoiding the gym. I would rather walk out my door and start my work out with just me and the outdoors then deal with the gym. What to do? I think I need that workout though. I need the calorie burn so I need to pull myself together and make the drive to the gym. I am leaving work early today. I have an appointment at my sons school so I will be home early. I will just get the gym over with early and maybe there won't be as many people. I can do this.

Btw, I thought of another reward I would like to give myself as I succeed in this journey. I want a beach cruiser bike. So, my first reward will be the Garmin after I complete the first 3 weeks of the C25k program. I have to reward myself for exercise as well as weight loss right. Anyway, 2 days down in week 1. Garmin, here I come!

I made it..

2010-05-11T10:10:00.000-07:00

I accomplished all my goals yesterday. I counted my points and I just went two into the extra 35. Yeah! I went for my C25k jog. And I stepped over 10000 steps which included the jog. I am so happy with myself.

I've been thinking about rewarding myself for making my goal like other bloggers I have read about.

I have been wanting a Garmin watch for exercise, a new Dooney purse, and a jumpsuit/romper has caught my eye. I was thinking I could reward myself each time I reach a milestone but it has to be a well deserved milestone because none of these items are cheap. I think I will get the Garmin or Jumper when I reach the 10 lbs. milestone. I need to think about it and figure out which item I want most. Or I was thinking I could get the Garmin when I complete 3 weeks of the c25k which will be the halfway mark and then I can use it for the last 3 weeks. hhhmmm. I will sleep on it and see.

I will be sticking to my goals today. Tonight, I will hit the gym.

2010-05-10T09:47:00.000-07:00

I didn't eat very well over the weekend but I was very busy cleaning out my Mom's garage. Of course she had one of her Soul Food Extravaganza that I can't resist so I made the choice to eat and I ate. Of course she chooses not to eat all that food and loses 2 lbs. but I made my choice and she made hers.

Anyway, I have goals for the week:

1. Count WW points daily
2. C25k three times this week
3. Elliptical Trainer two this week
4. 10000 steps each day
5. Lose 2 lbs.

I need to stick to my goals this week and focus.

Getting Back on Track

2010-05-07T13:53:00.000-07:00

I have been weak on the posting and using Weight Watchers but I have been walking all over the place. I have been reading blogs but I have not been commenting too much. I need to get over this hump. This later schedule I have been working has taken a toll on me. When I get home from work I just want to eat and relax. By relax, I mean lay on the couch and watch TV. I have been taking the dog out for walks and I went out one day for my C25k but I need to get 2 more day in this week and the week only has three more days. Tonight, my son and I are going to the high school musical and tomorrow I volunteered to help my Mom clean out her garage. So, when will I run. I think I will try to go late tonight and Sunday morning. I plan to get it together Sunday so I can get back on track Monday.

Time to get serious.

2010-05-03T20:51:00.000-07:00

I am tired of losing the same 5 lbs. When will I learn? I don't have much to say other than my job started our 10,000 steps challenge today. We were a pedometer to count our steps and we just a website to calculate the steps plus it has an activity converter so when I do any other exercise I can convert it to steps. I am competetive so this should keep me moving.

They drive me to eat!

2010-04-28T16:36:00.000-07:00

Alls well on the Just DeeDee front. I am eating good. I am not exercising as hard as I was but I have been out walking my dog. I need to make some adjustments on eating though. I am starving on my drive home from work so therefore when I get home I don't want to wait for dinner and I want to eat everything in sight. Also, I have been working a later shift so dinner has been late. I think maybe on Sunday I will prepare a few meals for lunch and dinner so I am not rushed in the morning or when I get home and have to just throw something together so I can eat before I eat bad stuff and a lot of bad stuff.

I also need to start thinking about how to stop my emotional eating. If I get stressed or someone at work pisses me off I need something to eat. What can I do about emotional eating? I need to think about this one.

Anyway, I hope my weigh-in Monday sees a drop from my Birthday Weekend. We shall see. Talk at you soon.

Major Set-back...

2010-04-26T15:30:00.001-07:00

Excuses, Excuses! It was my birthday weekend so I ate and drink like I was 20 not 40. But, I am owning up to it. I made these choices and I have to live with them. A lot of work down the drain but I am not done. So, I am no longer in "onederland" as Hollie put it. But, I will get back there. I need to learn from my mistakes and move on.

Running Start

2010-04-22T09:37:00.000-07:00

I was feeling a little blah yesterday. I was really mean to my husband and I feel bad for that. Why do the people we love most get the brunt of our bad moods. Sorry Honey!

Anyway, I am feeling a lot better today. I have a new mini-goal of losing a total of 10 lbs. by May 3. So, I am excited about that.

Also, on May 3 I will start my Couch to 5k program again. My six weeks of Eliptical and Jump Rope will be over. Although, I did not jump rope for six weeks because it really hurt my knees I hope to go back to it in the future when I don't have as much weight pounding on them.

I am going back to the c25k program because we are starting a 10,000 steps challege at work starting May 3 as well. So, I thought this would be the perfect time to start again. Also my new committment to stick to an exercise for 6 weeks should help me through it this time.

I think I may include a Jillian Micheals DVD here and there as well. For one because I want to start lifting weights again and for two I am not sure if I will be burning enough calories during the c25k program.

Well, I want to thank Hollie, Corletta, and Missy for the birthday wishes. The three of you are great inspiration and I learn a lot from the three of you. Thanks again.

40+ Club...

2010-04-21T11:36:00.000-07:00

I am 40. I turned 40 yesterday. So, Happy Birthday to me. I also reached another milestone. I am under 200 lbs. Not by much but still I didn't see a 2 on the scale. Yahoo! 2010 is going to be a good year.

Emotions got to me!

2010-04-15T12:39:00.000-07:00

I let Mr. Emotional Eater slip back into my life last night. He whispered into my ear while I most vunerable. Upset and hunger. He convinced me to mention to my family to go to Red Robin even when my husband said do they have something there for you to eat me and Mr. Emotional Eater almost ripped his head off. I tried to order sensibly but I was hunger, upset, and most of all unprepared. I did manage to order a turkey burger on a whole wheat bun but do you think I opted for the steamed veggies instead of the fries. Fries, I want the fries as I dared my husband to say something to me. I ate and I was happy as a lark and I stopped being mean to my husband. I did regret the fries but I must say I went home and added them to my weight watchers points count and I think I will still be ok for the week.

I need to be more prepared so that Mr. Emotional Eater doesn't take me to the dark side anymore.

Not so bad!

2010-04-12T16:33:00.000-07:00

Well, I was hoping to make my goal of 6 lbs before my birthday this week but I was 1 lbs short. I only lost a pound this week. I have to say that I did not stick to the plan while in LA this weekend. My little cousin decided to take me out to eat and we went to Roscoe’s Chicken and Waffles. I have never been there and I wanted to try it out. It was delicious and I counted it with my point but I also had 3 chocolate chip cookies and an In and Out burger. Oh my goodness. I had one chocolate chip cookie from Double Tree our hotel. And then my son bought chocolate chip cookies on the way home from Harris Ranch a popular stop for travelers between SoCal and NoCal. So, I had to have all the rare things you only get once in a while. My birthday isn’t until April 20 so I have another week to meet my goal and I can do it. Oh, I forgot to mention that I only went to the gym 2 times last week so I know what I did wrong and 1 lbs is good so I happy with it. I had a fun weekend!

Let's see if I can blog from my iPhone

2010-04-10T05:19:00.000-07:00

I'm in La and I ate well my first day. I made a nice healthy omelet before we left and I packed a sandwich for my lunch. I even ate a turkey sandwich for dinner. Tomorrow, well actually it today, will be the big challenge. Wish me luck I am already tired of blogging on my iPhone.

Diet Soda??

2010-04-08T20:02:00.000-07:00

I put down and latte and the diet soda 3 weeks ago but I made a bad judgement call and bought a 2 liter of diet soda yesterday. I can feel it. I truly feel different drinking that soda. I like how I feel drinking water. I feel all bloated and caffeinated from the soda. It may be in my mind but I really think I was hungrier today I had to reign myself in. Anyway, hopefully I learn from this.

I am heading to L.A. in the morning just me and my son. I am excited. It's for a basketball tournament and he is playing with old teammates and new. He is also playing for a new coach and he has only had one practice with him so I don't know how things will go. I must go pack now. Happy Weight Loss!

When did I get to this mindset?

2010-04-07T11:43:00.000-07:00

When did I finally say, "Hey, if I stick to a plan I will lose weight." I feel fabulous! I am counting points and hitting the gym and I am losing weight. Why wasn't I doing this a few weeks ago? I would start I would stop. I would eat right for two days and fall off the wagon. I would exercise a week and stop. I am currently in the middle of my third good week and I don't want to stop because I am finally losing weigh. How do I keep this going? Will my mindset change and all this hard work go down the drain. I have done that before and I don't want to do it again. So, how do I keep it all going. I know one thing that helps is having goals. I think I need mini goals every few weeks. I don't know all the answers but I hope to start figuring them out this time. I can do it!

Another good weigh in..

2010-04-05T16:02:00.000-07:00

Another 2 pounds gone...well 1.8 but that is close enough. I am really sticking to my plan...finally. Heading to L.A. this weekend out of the blue. My son has been asked to play in a basketball tournament. We leave Thursday and come back Sunday. Now how do I stick to the plan while traveling with a 14 year old that can eat me out of house and home. Well, I plan to sit down and work that all out before we leave. I will start tonight. That is the great thing about Yelp! and other internet tools I can look to see what restaurants are near my hotel and plan ahead. I also plan to work out while I am do there. I should also be doing a lot of walking because we plan to attend an amusement park while we are in the area. I should be ok because I would like to lose this week to meet my goal of 6 pounds by my birthday. Wish me luck!

April is my favorite month!

2010-04-01T16:31:00.000-07:00

April 1 is my first borns birthday. My daughter turned 19 today. I am so proud of her. She is an awesome young lady. She is 70 miles away at college. This will be the first birthday that I don't get to see her in the flesh and I actually teared up yesterday when that hit me. But, I am happy to have a responsible young lady that has the maturity to be away at college and take care of business. I also love April because its the month of my birth as well. I will be 40 April 20th and I am actually excited. No big party or trip but I do have a few days off just to enjoy me and whom ever else I decide I want to include. heehee! I also love the weather in April and the months to come and this is why April is my favorite month out of all the months.

I have a plan...

2010-03-31T17:20:00.000-07:00

I am only a week and a half in but I think I finally have a plan. I am sticking to weight watchers until I reach my goal and beyond. I usually jump from diet to diet and plan to plan but, I know weight watchers works for me so I sticking with it. I know it works for me because I have lost 20 lbs on it more than once. The difference is I plan to stick with it after I reach my goal. The other times I just went back to my old habits and the weight just all crept back plus more. I plan to do the same thing with exercise. I have decided to stick to a plan for at least 6 weeks. I also jump around with exercise. One week I am doing p90x and the next I am training to run a 5k. What is wrong with me? So, right now, I am going to the gym and using the eliptical for 45 minutes and on other days I am jumping rope at home. My husband was so excited to see me jumping rope and he said it is the cheapest total body work out you can get. I love it. I jump in 5 minute intervals for 20 minutes. It's so hard. Of course I don't make the whole 5 minutes because I either miss a jump or I need to gasp for air. But, I am working towards not stopping. I feel it all over even my abs. So, eliptical and jump rope are my thing and they will be my exercise of choice for six weeks and then I will shake it up. I feel good about my weight loss journey right now. But, I know it will have it's ups and downs. But, I am ready.

Yes. I lost...I am a loser..

2010-03-30T21:50:00.000-07:00

I lost two lbs. when I weighted in on Monday. Yes! I worked my butt off and it paid off. I am so excited. I need to work just as hard this week. I did fall off yesterday after my weight in. I almost sabotaged myself but I was able to pull myself together. I want to succeed. I'm off to read inspirational blogs.

2010-03-25T21:42:00.000-07:00

I am not sure what to talk about tonight but I can tell you that the scale in my bathroom has been calling me all night. Please leave me alone Mr. Scale. Why must you sabotage my plan? I will get on scale and if it's not where I want it to be I will be so disappointed and all my hard work will fall apart. If I have lost I will probably say oh it's ok to eat that donut I have already lost for the week. Monday is coming Mr. Scale please leave me alone until then. But, if you don't go down after all the work I have done I may never speak to you again. I have been counting my points and going to the gym so please go down or it's going to be "me and you" Mr. Scale. I guess I did have something to say. Even if it was just to my scale.

All I have to do is remember

2010-03-24T21:26:00.000-07:00

I have to remember that the weight will not come off over night. I have to remember that parts of my body are not going to change after one workout. I have to remember to take this weight loss journey one day at a time. I have to remember that I have to stick to my weight watcher points in order to lose. I have to remember to weight myself once a week so I won't get discouraged if I don't like what I see or too happy for what I see and then I indulge. I have to remember that the gym is my friend and chocolate is not. I have to remember that I can eat pizza but it has to be in moderation. I have to remember that I have a goal in mind a goal to lose 30 lbs. All I have to do is remember.

I need to adapt..

2010-03-23T18:36:00.000-07:00

I think blogging is going to work for me this around. Well, I have to change my hours at work because of a schedule change with my husband so I need to take my son to school. So, I have been arriving at work 2 hours later with that I am leaving two hours later :-). I really don't like that part. Why can't I still leave at my same time and still get paid? Anyway, that means I need to eat a later lunch. I know this because I worked a later shift last week and I was starving by the end of the day and guess what I almost ran people over trying to get to McDonald's. So, now I am chalking it up to a lesson learned. I need to eat later and then my body will or should I say should expect dinner later. I think it will take a while for my body to adjust because at the moment my body is begging to be fed. But, I think I can wait 15 more minutes.

Mad for not...

2010-03-22T14:54:00.000-07:00

So, I was all frustrated and beating my self up yesterday and I stepped on the scale this morning and I lost 1.2 lbs since last Monday. What on earth was I crying about? I ate good and I hit the gym twice last week. Too think I only went to the gym and hit the eliptical for 45 minutes twice last week and I lost a pound. My goal is to hit the gym atleast 4 times this week.

My goal right now is to lose 6 lbs by my birthday April 20. I am almost afraid to say it out loud or write it in the blog because it seems when I speak about it doesn't happen. But, I have faith. I need to keep up the good work and I can make the goal. I found a few new blogs to read people that are at the same point in the weight loss as me. That may help me a little. Anyway, I am trying to keep it positive right now. Let's Go!!!!!!!!!

Frustrated

2010-03-21T21:30:00.000-07:00

As I sit here eating cheese and crackers, I am thinking about how I just can't get a game plan. I stopped reading blogs because I wasn't having the success they were having. How sad is that? I start ww every week. I start a new exercise every other week. One of these days I will get it together.

It been awhile

2010-03-18T11:13:00.000-07:00

I have not blogged in a few months. I just wasn't feeling it for awhile. I was tired of reading about everyones success and I wasn't going well at all. I read my last post from January and I have been trying to enjoy life a little more. My son and daughter were playing a lot of basketball so that was taking up a lot of time as well. I think I am going to try and slowing sneak back into blogging. About myself and about weight. I still weight the same but I did start heading back to the gym this week so we will see how things go. I joined ww online for three months but that has been totally hit and miss. Let's guess take our time and see how things go.

Enjoy!

2010-01-08T09:02:00.000-08:00

I've been handling what I eat pretty well. It's the exercise that I have not stepped up to the plate and dug into. And its usually the other way around. I think I really need changes in my life. I need to start enjoying life more and loving myself more, start back hanging out with friends and family. Why is it all so hard for me? I think I need to sit back and think about my life. Well, maybe not because that is all I have been doing. I need to just start living this weekend. I sit with my list and jot down what I can do better. How about just start doing them? Man, wake up girl and Enjoy and everything else will fall into place. 2010 is going to be a good one!

Much Better...

2010-01-06T10:11:00.000-08:00

I was good with good yesterday. We even went out to dinner again. I ordered within the calories I had left for the day because I went on the restaurants site and planned ahead. Yahoo! I did it! Tonight is another night out and I will be alone so I know I can make good choices because I will be the only person I have to satisfy.

Exercise, on the other hand is not going well. I didn't exercise last night we made it home to late. I showered and went to bed. On days we don't have sporting evenings I need to make exercise a priority since I can't seem to fit it in on busy nights.

I want this so bad I have to get in gear.

Day 1 was a failure

2010-01-05T09:05:00.000-08:00

It started out well. I ate all the food I prepared for work. I was 200 calories short on what I had allotted myself for breakfast and dinner but I thought that's cool I can eat more dinner. Well, then things went down hill. My husband was stuck 30 miles away and I rode the train to work and he dropped me off at the train station and therefore should have been their to pick me up. I was able to hitch a ride from a friend but when I got home I found that I had no keys to the house. Oh my gooodness. I was stuck in the garage for over 90 minutes. All I could think about was the chicken breast dinner I planned to cook when I got home. By the time my husband arrived I was starving (well in my mind it was starving). So, he offered to take us to dinner and being that my plan had went out the window about 30 minutes before he arrived I agreed. Needless to say I went overboard. Why???? I eat so much bread I was shocked at myself. Day 1 was a bust.

With that said, I did grab Kaci my dog and we went for a walk so I did get my exercise in before we went to dinner.

Hopefully, today will be a better day. I will stay in control.

New Beginning

2010-01-03T11:23:00.000-08:00

I am back where I started. Since August, I have reminded the same weight. I guess the good thing would be that I have not gained.

I am starting again tomorrow and I need to set new goals. I would like to be 175 by April 19 which is the day before my 40th birthday. I plan to use the 30 day shred to get me started as well as go back to my C25k program. I made it as far as week 5 and stopped at one point. I think I need more than the C25k program and more than just the 30 day shred so I am going to combine them. With that I will end up back in the gym because with the weather there will be times when I need to run on a treadmill. I need to start reading all the wonderful blogs that encourage me as well. I am using sparkpeople people but I am also thinking of starting a food journal with in my blog to keep me accountable. I know I can do this. I just need to stick to the plan.

I go back to work tomorrow. I don't wanna. I had a great time off. Christmas was wonderful for me and my family. New Years Eve was awesome. We had a ball at a friends last minute get together. I think last minute partys are awesome you don't have time to over think them as a guess or host.

Well, Happy New Year Blogoshere! Let's make it a good one.

I've been away...

2010-01-02T22:33:00.000-08:00

But, I am back. I have to get it together. I am going to sit down and come up with my game plan tomorrow. I have to say that I have not gained any weight so that's good. But, I have not lost any that is not so good. As I have stated before I turn 40 in April and I would like to be on the path to weight loss by then. I have to focus and get this done. It's going to be hard but it's what I want.

Today..

2009-12-14T07:57:00.000-08:00

I have not been blogging, exercising, or eating right. Today is a new day. I have been so overwhelmed with running my household and working that I have not had time to work on me. I am thinking of heading back to the gym today. I just have not been keeping up with the running and I am starting to think I am just not a runner. I think I will hit the good ole elliptical tonight at the gym. My good friend the elliptical has helped me lose 20 lbs. in the past so maybe I should give her another whirl. On days, I want to work out at home 30 day shred will work or any other dvd I have in my oh this one will work collection. I will let you know tomorrow if I made it to the gym.

Things will get better

2009-12-01T14:46:00.000-08:00

Life has been being mean to me lately. But, all I can do is put it God's hands. I know things will get better and I am still better off than many and I pray for them as well.

I went to my son's basketball game last night which was about an hour away so exercise was not in the plan. By the way, he played well. He's a freshman and has a lot to learn but he is doing great on the Varsity team. Anyway, I will be going for my run tonight. I think I will get dinner out of the way and take a late run.

I have been eating sensible but I have not been tracking. I need to focus and stick to my food plan. My friend is going to be starting on Sparkpeople this week so that may be my motivation to keep up with her.

Speaking of my friend, her name is Leigh-Ann and the two of us went to see the movie "The Blind Side" which was very good. I always tear up at movies but its usually once during the move I think I teared up every five minutes with this moving. Or maybe I am just emotional because like I said life has been unkind to me lately. Back to Leigh and I, well in the movie the two Moms names are Leigh Ann and Dee Dee and my friend and I are Leigh-Ann and Dee Dee but why on earth does my namesake have to be the Crackhead Mom? Lol. Did I mention the part about how my life has been going?

In the end, all will work out and I have to say I am excited about my run tonight I plan to push hard. I need to burn some calories and clear my mind.

Tell the truth...

2009-11-28T21:35:00.000-08:00

So, I did not stick to the plan. I did work out Wednesday and Thursday. Actually, Thanksgiving day even went well. I ate everything I wanted but in moderation. I was very proud of myself. But, it was the day after Thanksgiving. It was just me and my kids all day watching tv and hanging out. And, I really don't want to say it but, eating. We had left overs from Turkey Day and then the kids wanted junk food while watching movies and I gave in and did the same. I loved the day with my kids but I wish I would have had some self control when it came to the junk. Today, wasn't bad though I think I am back on track. I plan to get up and run in the morning. So for exercise I planned Wed. - Sun. So, out of 5 days I didn't work out 2. I think I can forgive myself. I'm sure the scale won't be so merciful.

Keep it up...next stop Turkey Day...

2009-11-25T08:14:00.000-08:00

So, I have been really strong this week and I have not given in once. This morning that damn Polar Bear sugar cookie at Starbucks was SCREAMING "Dee Dee you know you want me." But, I resisted because I know tomorrow is the day that I will get to sample "key word" sample all my favorites. I love sweet potato pie and pound cake. I am allowing myself one slice of each. The hard part will be walking away the rest of the day and not letting my Mother talk me into taking any home. I plan to work out the rest of the week. Wed. -Sun. I can do it!

I am so excited to see my family. All my cousins will be there we all used to be so close and now we all have kids of our own and busy family lives so we don't see each other as much as we used too. I miss them all we used to have such great times together. We will be building more family memories tomorrow and I can't wait!

Great Weekend

2009-11-23T07:52:00.000-08:00

I think I finally figured out that weekends count. Or is it because it was my first weekend back? Let's hope not.

The only bad part about my weekend was that my hairstylist canceled on me after I waited in her shop for 45 minutes. I called her Tuesday of last week and asked if I could reschedule my appointment which was scheduled for Friday night because I wanted to attend my daughters basketball game Friday night instead. So, she suggested Saturday morning at 10:30. I agreed. I show up at 10:30 with another client of hers who I had been seeing on Fridays so it seemed she made a switch as well. Anyway, we both walk in and our hairstylist is not there. We both have a seat and she asks what time is my appointment. I tell her 10:30 and hers is the same. 30 minutes later our hairstylist walks in with her grandmother. Ok, so she had to pick up her grandmother. I forgive her. Next, she calls over the other client and starts to wash her hair. 15 minutes later she calls me over to tell that it's her grandma's 78 birthday and she has to do her hair for the surprise party they are giving her that night and they need to leave the shop by 1 o'clock and can I reschedule for Monday. Ok, but, why wasn't I asked this 15 minutes ago.

I think she saw the steam coming from my ears so she offered to color and cut my hair for free. Yahoo, that's money in my pocket! My next reply was see you on Monday. I went home and relaxed the rest of the day.

I ate within my calorie range all weekend but I can't say that I ate well. I did have pizza on Sunday night but I ate it in moderation and I made sure to stay within the caloric range and that is a big accomplishment for me when it comes to pizza!

I also ran Sunday morning and I plan to run after work before my hair appointment tonight.

It's a new week. Let's make this happen!

New Start..

2009-11-21T11:30:00.000-08:00

First, I would like to thank Missy and Syl for their encouragement on the 5k that I was supposed to run. As stated in my last post I have opted not to participate. I want to be able to run my first 5k the entire way and I know I am not ready for that. I will be looking for the next run in my area real soon. Also, my co-workers and I have pleged to run in the Bay to Breakers in May which is a 12k.

I started the 5k program again this morning. I am glad I did. I had a good pace going and I am happy about that. I will go out again in the morning. I feel good and not beat up like I did the other day when I pushed to hard.

I did really well on my first day back on Sparkpeople yesterday. I ate a bad lunch today but I will count the calories in Sparkpeople and make sure to adjust my dinner to the calories I have left.

Well, that's it for now. Have a great weekend!

Let’s try this again….

2009-11-20T14:28:00.001-08:00

I will be 40 in exactly five months from today. I realized this last night as I was beating myself up about not being able to stick to my plans. I have decided that starting today I would like to lose 40 lbs. by the time I turn 40. I am not going to run next week in the 5k I had planned because I am just not mentally or physically ready. But, I will start my 5k program from the beginning tomorrow morning. I tried to pick up on week 5 a few days ago after a 12 day lapse and I paid for it the next two days. So, I think I need a new beginning and I think this way I will not quit. Although, it looks like I will need to take my program to the gym since it has started to rain here in Northern California. I also started back on Sparkpeople today and I am trying to get a girl friend of mine to start using it as well so we can motivate each other.
I have my work out planned for the whole week. I want to start planning out my meal each night as well. I know I can do this unfortunately I have done it before so I have no doubt that it can be done.

Here I go again…wish me luck! Oh, I finally added a profile picture.

I had not ran for 12 days

2009-11-15T21:26:00.000-08:00

I ran tonight. It just came over me to get up and go. After a 12 day hiatus I am back. I am supposed to run in a Thanksgiving 5k but I don't know. I am not ready. I would love to still participate and walk/jog as much as I can instead of jogging the whole time. I am a little tired so I will start my blogging again tomorrow. I need to get back on the weight loss trail. Good night.

My husband started running this morning

2009-11-02T13:02:00.000-08:00

Here I am on week 4 and somebody has decided to jump on the band wagon. I am very proud of him. Although, he wants to run at 5am and I want to run at 7pm needless to say we are not running together. Physically that is! I am so happy that we have running to share even if we are not running together. I am not one to wake up early I actually get up at 5:30 to head to work. So, getting up at 4:30 to run is not a goal of mine. My husband on the other hand does not have a desk job like me and he is always on his feet so he would rather run in the morning and get it over with because he is just to tired in the evenings. So, we can still talk about and compare notes. It's going to be great now let's see if I can talk him into the 5k run on Thanksgiving Day with me!

I'm Back

2009-10-30T10:19:00.000-07:00

I lost my blog mojo there for a while. I am back. I am still exercising and trying to eat right. I was using P90x up until last week. I even bought a pull up bar. My body is changing but the scale. I really want the scale to change. So, this past week I have just been running. I had to back track some so I am on Week 4 of the Couch to 5k program. I started to use Sparkpeople again this week to much success. I lost about 3 pounds this week so I am back down to 201.6. Operation 199 was not a success. Thanks Katie and Missy for your comments I just saw them this morning. I'm back!

Reminder: This is for me.

2009-10-12T19:55:00.000-07:00

I have to remind myself that this blog is for me and not the blogoshpere. I am not a writer and I never was. I just wrote what needed to be written in college and high school and I was never creative. So, my blog is never going to have followers and I have come to terms with that. This blog is for me. My notes, my success, my failures, my life.

Exercise going strong

2009-10-07T07:21:00.000-07:00

I am enjoying my P90X workouts. They are really hard but I am adapting. I am debating on buying a chin-up bar. My arms are very week so I know I won't be able to do many pull-ups at first. But, I guess that is the reason why I should take on the challenge so I can improve my upper body strength.

Last night was the third night at attempting the ab ripper X dvd and I improved so much. I was pretty proud of myself. The first night I was floppy around like a whale and I just couldn't complete any of the moves. Last night, I concentrated on my form instead of how many crunches I was behind and I was happy with what I did accomplish.

Tonight is Kenpo I think it's like kickboxing so I am excited about that. I used to Taebo and I always liked that exercise so I think Kenpo will be fun. I need to get my run in tonight as well I hope. I have some other things on my plate tonight so I may have to postpone the run.

On another note, if time permits I think I will update my blog with a new look and maybe add a profile picture. I think it's time!

Operation 199

2009-10-06T07:37:00.000-07:00

I am challenging myself to weight under 200 lbs. by next Friday 10/16. I can lose 3 lbs. by then. This is the first time in my life I have been over 200 and I don't like it one bit. I can do this and I am writing this post to make myself accountable. I will be 199 or less by October 16!

What is wrong with me on the weekends?

2009-10-05T07:48:00.000-07:00

I have been right on my exercising goals. Matter a fact, I have been surprising myself on how obsessed I am that I make sure I get my rountine in each day. Yes, I said obsessed. I love it. I want to exercise. I am really enjoying it. My husband notices that I am in my exercise room daily which used to be my daughters room. So, why can't I eat right. I am putting in all this work but I can't control my eating atleast on the weekends.

I have been doing great during the week. I think it has to do with being in a controlled environment. I bring my lunch it's planned and ready to go so I don't have any other options. Well, I guess I do there is the infamous candy jar that I vowed to stay away from when I first started my weight lost journey and I have succeed and then there is the vending machine. I avoid that like the plague. So, I can control my eating at work but why can't I on the weekend at home.

Even during the week days at home I decide what I will cook for dinner that night before I leave work and I do it I cook dinner and I eat a heathy dinner and I am done for the night. But, Friday night rolls around and all bets are off. Friday night is the dreaded pizza night in my family. I LOVE PIZZA. If it's there I eat it all night long. I grab a slice here and I grab a slice there. What is wrong with me? Then, Saturday and Sunday we are always on the go because one of my kids always has a sporting event or something and we eat out. And by the time we eat I am starving and I always make bad choices. I really need to get my weekends under control. Any suggestions?

I miss the Shred

2009-10-02T07:38:00.000-07:00

Last night, I started with Chest and Back in the P90X series. Wow, It was almost an hour work-out with Jillian it was 30 minutes. He takes a lot of water breaks in which I was upstairs and I did not bring any water into the room. So, I was just standing there while Tony took 1 minute breaks. Note to self: Grab a bottle of water before you head upstairs to work out. In the end, it was a good work out though. I have to buy a chin up bar because I was making up my own exercises when ever Tony and the crew used the bar and I am sure my exercises did not have the same effect. I can only imagine myself trying to use a chin up bar. Ha-ha! I have such a weak upper body (and heavy lower body) I won't be able to do one. But, I am determined to get through this.

Tonight is jump training and Jillian introduced some moves in Level 3 so I will see if I am ready. Wish me luck!

Last day to Shred

2009-09-30T14:48:00.000-07:00

Well, it's over and I am going to miss Jillian but it's time to see what Tony can do for me. From Oct 1 to Dec 30 I will be attempting to complete P90X. I will also continue my C25k journey.

My main obstacle is that basketball season starts in November and both my kids play. My daughter plays for her college and my son his high school and to top it off its her first season in college and his first season in high school so my husband and I don't plan to miss a game. So, there will be many nights that I may not be able to fit in exercise and I already get up at 5am to make it to work by 7am. Oh, what to do? I guess I will figure it out when the time comes. I can always exercise at lunch. I may have to make changes when the time comes.

When I grow up...

2009-09-26T13:07:00.000-07:00

I want to be like Syl. Again, Syl has made another suggestion that is working for me. I am now using Spark People. I had never heard of 30 day Shred until I found Syl's blog and shredding has really been a jumpstart to my exercise regiment. I have been struggling with tracking my food intake counting calories and ww points frustrate me. I realize I am counting calories with Spark but their database is pretty awesome and takes out the guest work. Also, it's online and has an iphone app. This is right down my alley. Today is my second day using Spark so we will see how it goes. I don't want to get frustrated.

I finished my first week of couch to 5k. I am pleased with myself. It was fun I like going out to the park and people watching as I walk/jog as well. I am still shredding and when the shred ends this Wednesday a friend and I at work will start p90x. I have tried p90x before and I stopped the second day but I think Jillian has prepared me this time. So, I will succeed. And I have 8 more weeks of my c25k program so exercise is set for the next few months.

Also, my office has a biggest loser contest. We all put money in and for 12 weeks we will turn in our loss percentages and each week a winner will get a monetary reward. Things are going great and I have so much motivation. Thanks all.