41 and Single Again!

Yes, the place I never thought in a million years I would be. Separated. For 4 long months now and it has been the worst 4 months of my life. I have cried like never before. I have whaled loudly and openly like I have never done before of course when the house is empty. I try very hard to keep my sobs to myself when the children are around. But, when I am alone I have even shocked myself with the noises I can make while crying. I sound like two cats about to fight. And will it even end. Will I ever stop crying over this man? I am starting to believe so. I have my good days and bad days but I am getting better. I am not going to go into details or bash my Ex he is actually a good guy overall just doesn’t what to be married anymore. Midlife? Hell, if I know. I am tired of trying to figure it out so moving on. As you know this was a weight loss blog but it will now be a “My new journey” blog. I am looking to find myself and look for things I enjoy. I think I want to make a list of things I want to do I guess you could say my “bucket list”. I still plan to lose weight. Yes, I do not want to be the fat ex-wife. I plan to work on my self-esteem, my friendships, on being a good mother, and a better daughter. I plan to cherish the memories but let go and move on! Let the fun begin!